

OUT THIS WEEK!
TRACKLIST
1. Black Eyed Peas ~ I Gotta Feeling
2. Lady Gaga ~ LoveGame
3. Jay Sean feat. Lil Wayne ~ Down
4. Drake ~ Best I Ever Had
5. Mariah Carey ~ Obsessed
6. Jason DeRulo ~ Whatcha Say
7. Keri Hilson feat. Kanye West & Ne-Yo ~ Knock You Down
8. Fabolous feat. The-Dream ~ Throw It In The Bag
9. Pitbull ~ Hotel Room Service
10. Michael Franti & Spearhead ~ Say Hey (I Love You)
11. Shakira ~ She Wolf
12. David Guetta feat. Akon ~ Sexy Chick
13. Jordin Sparks ~ Battlefield
14. Kelly Clarkson ~ Already Gone
15. Daughtry ~ No Surprise
16. Boys Like Girls ~ Love Drunk
17. Cobra Starship ~ Good Girls Go Bad
18. Katy Perry ~ Waking Up In Vegas
19. Taylor Swift ~ You Belong With Me
20. Keith Urban ~ Only You Can Love Me This Way
“WHAT’S NEXT” NEW MUSIC PREVIEW – BONUS TRACK
21. Katharine McPhee ~ Had It All

If there is one thing i learned in being in a relationship is that you don’t play with the “L” word. It’s not that I’m inlove or anything with this girl which we will name Jackie. It’s the feeling of being left out and with me being at fault. I never thought it would end this way nor feel this way. I know it’s pathetic and stupid to write about this but this all i can do. She’s gone forever.
It all started as a friendship, like everyone else. She was cool, I was cool, we are a click. She provided me with the friendship that I long for, being thousand of miles away from my comfort zone. I always look forward to talking with her every single day. Even if it only lasted for a hour or so. First in the mornings and secondly just before I get off from work. We had a very interesting conversation, we talk about almost anything. About dogs, who is smarter, about our boring lives and about love. I shared more things to her than my actual friends. I guess I let my guard down around her. I don’t know how it started, we being a thing. All I remember is saying the ever overrated “L” word and her doing the same. I even called her babe and me her teddy bear. I know it’s very cheesy. In fact, it’s really, so, very, all the superlatives cheesy. She even made me growel…..grrr…! she said it’s cute. She always makes fun of me. Of how i say thingy instead of just thing. For example, I would say “I think that’s an American thingy” and she would laugh so hard. She told me not to change. Sadly, I did. I do admit being single all my life. And I wear it proud. But it gets tiring, being single. I don’t know about you but for me I’m sick of it. I.m a hopeless romantic, I even joined a group in facebook for hopeless romantics and also the group with a name “awesome people who are single for no reason” I don’t know where I’m going at with this dumb post. I just need to let this out of my system. I can’t cry even if I want to. I guess my tearducks are mad at me for being this dumb and selfish. By the way, it’s already 9:49pm here and I need to sleep soon cause I have work tomorrow. Also, I’m listening to Air Supply’s Platinum and Gold Collection album while eating a box of not-so-sweet cookies but they do, do the job so it’s all okay. I believe this is a cliche of heartbreak…is it? I don’t have a clue. NGSB remember?
I learned many things during this short lived relationship. First, when you’re in love (or if you think you are) it feels like all the songs are about you. Seriously, when hear something….I can’t explain it. I know you get the point. I remember one time she asked me to listen to one song. “Why” by 98degrees. Good thing I have a album of 98degrees (weird right?) in which I don’t really listen to. So i did listen to it. The next day I asked her whats with the song? She told me to listen to the lyrics. I did. I’m still confused. What’s with the lyrics? It’s a crappy song from a crappy boyband. Then she said it…”Why are we still friends?” I was astounded. She made the first move on me. (NICE!) I told her that what are we having right now is epic and I don’t want to rush things. Because we just met. Of course I said I have feelings too. (I lied that time.) but I can’t just say the “L” word, it’s a real biggie for me. And then she said. “Ryan, I love you.” You know what I said? Thank you. WTF?!?! Who says thank you when you’re told the “L” word? ME! She was obviously dissapointed by that statement. So I needed to do something about it. I gather all my guts and say that dreaded word. I lied again that time. I only said that word whole-heartedly to a girl one time. I remember it very much, during our Rizal Park tour. All thanks to my dearest friend who suddenly just opened up the topic. Saying to that girl that I have something important to say. So I kinda poured out my feelings on a public bus. We are on a three seater me, her and a random stranger beside us. I told her, in which i totally remember. I love you more than Kat McPhee now. (Yes, I’m a real suck-up for Miss McPhee) she gave an answer back. Up until now I’m still wondering but I guessing it’s a no. I’m not dumb or anything I’m not pushing my luck. I would have appreciated it if she just dumped me or something. Cause I was left hanging for that answer throughout college. I’m so over it now. No worries. Okay. seriously this Air Supply songs are hitting the right spots. I think I’m gonna cry. Okay back to the real topic. I don’t remember what really happened between us. I guess it’s the way of my brain to cope up with this ugly feeling. Just leaving out the not-so-good memories. But I feel what I feel that thursday afternoon. We are talking, I don’t know what are we arguing about. In which most definately its my fault. Being childish and all. Immature, conceited, spoiled, selfish,etc. It was a very ugly break-up. I recall telling my friend about this relationship. She told me that I may fall for the girl in the end. All I said was, this isn’t a movie, things like that never happens in real life. I was wrong again. I don’t know how to describe that feeling. As I was walking home it was very weird, very very weird. I don’t to feel that way again. Never again. I think I’m done sharing, the force field that I used to block out the memories are slowly going down better I put up a wall again. Did I make sense with what I just wrote? I don’t know. Love indeed is very complicated in many ways. You thought you know everything you need to know but it can still surprise you in many ways. Would I want to be in love again? Yeah I do. Most certainly. Just waiting for my next heartache. haha. To that girl we named Jackie, I’m really sorry. I don’t know if we’ll see each other again but I’m really sorry. You did hurt me too so you should be sorry too. Ha!
Okay now I feel like a pathetic dumb-ass loser for this. I know my case is pretty simple compared to other people stories. But hey! This is my story so back-up this is a big thing for me. Deal with it!
I’m on the last song of the Air Supply album. It’s Here I Am (Just When I Thought I Was Over You) this song is killing me. I think I’m gonna switch to Bon Jovi now. PEACE!

i do really believe that kat mcphee is one of the best female idol that ever graced the idol stage. packed with talents and undeniably the brightest stage presence ever. also, she’s one of the most underrated idols which is very sad. up to this day i still wonder how she lost to that grey haired guy. oh well, move on. here’s a tribute to miss mcphee’s idol run.

1 audition - god bless the child / billy holiday
2 semi-finals - i know i’ll never love this way again / dionne warwick
3 semi-finals - my funny valentine / chet baker
4 top 36 - since i fell for you / barbra streisand
5 top 24 - all is fair in love / stevie wonder
6 top 16 - think / aretha franklin

7 top 12 - until you come back to me / stevie wonder
8 top 11 - come rain or come shine / ella fitzgerald
9 top 10 - the voice within / christina aguilera
10 top 9 - you’re bringing out the elvis in me / faith hill
11 top 8 - who wants to live forever / queen
12 top 7 - someone to watch over me / frank sinatra

13 top 6 - i have nothing / whitney houston
14 top 5 - against all odds / phil collins
15 top 5 - black horse and the cherry tree / kt tunstall
16 top 4 - hound dog & all hook up / elvis presley
17 top 4 - can’t help falling in love / elvis presley

18 top 3 - i believe i can fly / r. kelly
19 top 3 - someone over the rainbow / judy garland
20 top 3 - ain’t got nothing but the blues / ella fitzgerald

21 top 2 - black horse and a cherry tree (reprise) / kt tunstall
22 top 2 - somewhere over the rainbow (reprise) / judy garland
23 top 2 - my destiny / katharine mcphee

finale - all girls medley
finale - all coming back to me now with meatloaf
finale - through the rain with carrie underwood
finale - burt bacharach medley with burt bacharach and dionne warwick
finale - the time of my life with taylor who? (forgot his name.) :D


ameircan idol has produced outstanding talents. here are the winner’s and runner-ups’ debut album covers.
who has the best debut cover?
who has the worst debut cover?
(via somuchforreality)
cute :D


what can i say - carrie underwood feat. sons of sylia
we are golden - mika
apologize - luke bryan
halo - beyonce
had it all - katharine mcphee
bad boys - alexandra burke
dance your life away - jon mclaughlin
about a girl - sugababes
why - 98 degrees
3 - britney spears
bad romance - lady gaga
live like we’re dying - kris allen
looking for paradise - alejandro sanz feat. alicia keys
all over again - rita guerra feat. pedro oliveira
up where we belong - blake
use somebody - brooke white


PopAwesome interview with Kat McPhee
The lovey Katharine McPhee (from American Idol) took the time to answer our PopAwesome Questionnaire. Check out her responses below to find out her favorite karaoke song, movie and item of clothing in her closet! Katharine’s single “Had It All” is available on iTunes now, and her sophomore album Unbroken is due out in January.
WHAT IS THE MOST AWESOME…
Song you’ve ever written?
Each song is different with a different emotion, but at the moment, the MOST awesome is “Lifetime.” I love how happy, sweet, and quirky it is.
Recipe you know by heart?
Greek red sauce! Soo yummy and lots of garlic. My mother-in-law is Greek, and she taught it to me.
Concert you’ve ever been to?
Dave Matthews Band! Mind blowing. I’ve seen them twice.
Date you’ve ever been on?
Griffith Park Observatory Laser Show. I was really impressed with this date. Especially since we were only in high school.
Website you visit each day?
Style.com is great. I love keeping up with the latest fashion things.
Thing to do on a rainy day?
Duh, play in it! Put those rain boots on!!
CD in your car?
Maxwell – his new record is hot!
Item of clothing in your closet?
illia leather jacket. I love illia’s clothes, but my jacket is my favorite right now.
City you’ve ever visited?
That’s not fair! This is a hard one. Okay, San Francisco will be my pick.
Movie you could watch a thousand times?
“Father of the Bride” and “Father of the Bride II”! They are always tear-jerkers!
Karaoke song?
I actually am not a huge fan of doing karaoke, but I love watching it. “Summer Lovin” is always a favorite.
Beauty product in your makeup bag?
Oh so hard! I love makeup. Consistently, my number one thing I always have in my purse is YSL mascara, and I love it.
Event in your life this year?
Working and completing my second record, “Unbroken.” Such a great, fulfilling experience.
so… im not sure yet on what direction this blog thingy will take. therefore, i decided to have it planned and broken in bits so i would be forced to post at least once per day. haha. im really bored so this is all i can do.

sunday.unbroken news
any news that interest me will be posted here. rounding-up anything that occured over the past week.

monday.movie corner
my non-sensical movie blabbers and thoughts will be up in here monday of everyweek.

tuesday.versions
every tuesday i’ll be pouring my ever deep thoughts on who/what did better on ummm.. anything. (sorry for the filler and im a very biased person.)

wednesday.b/w spotlight
exciting things that needed special mention will be discussed and shared here on wednesdays’.

thursday.weekend playlist
f.y.i.: here in the middle east friday is the start of weekends. ergo, thursday is the last day of work here. hoorah!

friday.tgif
i’ll something in here if i can. but more likely i’ll be on hiatus on this day

saturday.mcpheever round-up
as a huge fan of miss mcphee any tidbits regarding her will be posted here regurlarly every saturday. :D
others…..
(will be posted anytime.)

book of the moment
the title is very self-explanatory

random shenanigans
will feature my latest adventures or misadventures.


TINKER BELL AND THE LOST TREASURE
yep, i did watch this second installment of tinker bell. haha. say what you wanna say but i did enjoy this movie. loved the characters except that america ferrera (ugly betty) did’nt make the cast. maybe because of her busy schedule. looking forward to the third if theres one. ha!
i’m officially back from a one day hibernation. ha! woke up yesterday by 9am. fixed some things, had brunch by 11am then back to sleep again by 12nn. slept up until 7pm. i just looooveeeee sleeping. yawn….. now i’m sleepy again.

watched this movie on dvd for the second time around last night. i’m a big fan of sandra bullock and a good friend of mine said she’s part german which is interesting. i’m not really a good film critic and i don’t know the ‘this’ and ‘that’ on that. (that’s confusing! haha.) all i know is i enjoyed this movie thoroughly from start to finish. maybe i’ll see this the third time. :D
so the million dollar question is…….
anyone wanna marry me?